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The Fabric of the Universe
The Fabric of the Universe
Nestled in a family and career, it may appear a little unsettling to consider oneself part of a cosmos, primarily unknown. But when this realisation dawns that not only one but everyone else around, and indeed everything, are a mere part of a larger drama that is rolling out of itself, it starts appearing lifelike, and a sense of peace and tranquillity arises from inside when one spends some quiet time alone, doing nothing and thinking nothing.
Let us look at the most fundamental truth of being alive. How do I exist? I exist because I was born to my parents. My parents were born of their parents. As life is transferred from parents to children through the process of procreation, it is a fact that each of us carries our ancestors within as our DNA. It is a precise, unaltered, unhindered flow from time immemorial. Patches of DNA are like maps of people’s past.
We hardly know about ancestors beyond grandparents. Ancestors before grandparents are often hidden in the distant past and exist only as stories. As families turn nuclear, even these are forgotten. My grandfather died even before my birth or my father’s marriage. However, these aspects are dealt with in detail in the Hindu religion. The Garuda Purana explains what happens to a soul after leaving the mortal body. The tradition is to recite a portion of it at every death. Ancient Indians knew that life continues beyond the body after it dies and is disposed of.
One of the ceremonies prescribed in Garuda Purana is Narayan Bali Puja. In case any of the ancestors died an unnatural death – which means accidents and other untimely deaths – or did not receive a proper funeral and last rites for any reason, someone in the lineage can invoke that ancestor by offering specially made rice balls with sesame seeds and give them a respectful goodbye. I performed this rite recently at the Godavari River, some 200 km north of Hyderabad, at Kandakurti, in Nizamabad District, in the presence of my wife Anjana and son Amol.
The ritual starts with a head-drowning bath in the river – connecting the present existence with the eternal stream. Then, you wear a fresh two-piece cotton sheet covering your body. The first part of the ceremony is to purify the place, your mind, and body by chanting Vedic Mantras. In the second part of the ceremony, the Trinity of gods – Brahma, Vishnu and Rudra – is invoked with the ancestor souls around a sanctified water vessel. Ten guarding spirits of directions (eight horizontal ones and two vertical ones) accompany them as soldiers escort kings. In the third part, rice and sesame balls are made and worshipped. These balls are then immersed in the river, along with the dress worn in the ritual and a bath is taken.
The four priests who performed the ceremony were young, well-versed in the ritual, and did good work using a book. The atmosphere was solemn and free of material trappings, and I felt like I was floating above the world’s trappings for a while. Making balls with hot, freshly cooked rice at the spot after mixing it with black sesame seeds was very satisfying, as was the experience of immersing them later in the river. I could see fish rushing to consume them. I could feel the presence of my ancestors within me, accompanied by a surge of emotion and tears welling up. Our biggest tormentor is our mind, and it was silenced for a while, I must say.
According to ancient Indian philosophy, there are five dimensions of the mind, a four-plus-one structure. Manas, Chitta, Buddhi, Ahamkara and Atman. Manas is the lower mind, which collects sensory impressions. Chitta holds impressions, memories, and experiences. Buddhi is the decision-making part of the mind. Ahamkara is the sense of ‘I-ness’. It gives rise to ‘personal’ experiences by linking the senses to an internal, subjective centre. Together, these four mental organs are called Antahkarna. It is very common not to understand each function individually. The Atman is the most fundamental part of awareness, enveloped by Antahkarna.
We live primarily in the material world, driven mainly by Ahamkara. Atman, though the primary source and owner of the body, is hardly noticed. We flood our lives with desires. We condition our lives to be busy and live in the company of other people, and what-ifs are useless. People spend most of their waking hours on TV and the Internet, indulging in trivia and passively flowing with how the world is moving on – politics, games and sports, films, etc. A willingness to transcend into more advanced forms rarely arises. However, once it does, there is no turning back. A constant yearning to understand what lies beyond this material existence does not fade away.
Another crucial Indian concept is the multiverse. Every moment contains multiple universes, and the one in which we are living through our bodies and senses is just one. Each universe has a different time-space scale; an hour here can be a year or a second in another universe and even more stretched or contracted depending on how distant or proximal it is in space-time. Thus, one can connect to all one’s ancestors and future progeny as a consciousness. Or, more accurately, one can become aware of these connections, as they are already present here and now. So, as I invoked my ancestors that day, they were watching. It was their present moment in some other universe, and so it was for my great-grandchildren, who were not even born yet in my present reality.
In the last few decades, Quantum mechanics has thrown up many paradoxes that cannot be understood in the framework of reductionist physics. For example, non-local effects can propagate instantaneously over enormous distances. An impromptu choice on Earth regarding the observation of a photon, whether a wave or a particle, changes a scenario set up millions of years ago somewhere in space from where it is travelling. According to a thought experiment popularised by American physicist John Archibald Wheeler (1911 –2008), our choices today can change the distant past. These effects establish that the idea of an objective reality, visualised in terms of material objects, is insufficient, if not invalid. Had not science concluded that colours, tastes, and smells exist only in consciousness?
The Theory of Everything, which comprehensively incorporates the subjective and the objective, is elusive. But we know that a lot is yet to be known, and more than what we know is what we are ignorant of, even collectively as humanity. Of the thousand things we do for amusement – travel, partying, and whatnot – remembering our ancestors is worth doing, even if we don’t know if it works. The tears I momentarily had while making the balls of cooked rice and sesame seeds for my ancestors testified that it was valid. Finally, I felt like a yarn woven into the fabric of the universe. I wish I could better appreciate the embroidery and know my motifs and colours.
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